[ϟ] "Nostalgia hits hard during times like these. The only consistent thing in life is change after all, maybe so. Though time has been moving terribly too fast and I find myself struggling to keep up."
(( ☼ “Thank goodness for us -loids, eh?” Joking. Diverse as they might be, there were simply too generous a number of ‘copies’ for each and every one to matter. “Oh! …No actually, I must have missed that. I enjoyed the Doberhuahua one grossly… oh, my.” Time to scoop said puppies onto her lap, away from the alcohol. Loving as they were, it was evident they’d caught the liquor in her breath. “I have to say, I feel awfully lonely without Clementine. Lightning too, of course, but I couldn’t possibly ask that of you. Would you mind if I took my little lady home?”
[ϟ] "Dogs are a persons best friend, right? Clementine is your dog, so I can’t deny you of taking her back. Will Clementine being with you and Lightning being with me give me a good enough excuse to see you more?" Hah. Only half kidding, but hopefully it’d pull a laugh out of her. "I don’t want Lightning getting too lonely, neither do I want Clementine to either." His turn to scoop the pup into his lap. Lightning responded with a lick to the face and he chuckled. "You don’t need to ask me, silly." Laying down, he let out a breath and closed his eyes. "The best part about letting the pups sleep with you is that they’re like an extra warmer there for you on cold nights, hah. Having someone or something to sleep next to is very comforting too. Don’t you agree?"
(( ☼ “Only loosely. I hardly understand American Football, I must say I’m surprised that you do.” Then again, it was likely. Perhaps his sporty companions had welcomed him into the sport after expressing his interest in baseball. “It was a pitiful game, though the halftime performance was entertaining to a tee. American idols are so different from ours! So much looser and carefree seeming.” That footwork by that one Mars gentleman was snazzy, if she had to say so herself. Nom. That chicken bit is now hers. “I certainly am. Something to entertain my Sundays with. Would you like to watch it together again this year?”
[ϟ] "At least they were able to score at least one point now, right? Ahah," Annnd another bite before he took the bottle and poured himself another. "Very true. Idols here seem more, identical to another? Rather than in America, they’re very diverse looking and it’s refreshing." A smile tugged at his lips and he nodded. "I’d be more than happy to. It’s always been something nice to end the weekend with and start the week once more. Did you happen to see the commercials running in between the games though? Eheh, I liked the Boodweezer(?) one with the little puppy and the horses. The pup reminded me of the two fluff butts we have here."
(( ☼ “Security? That’s funny.” Suited just well. He’d warned her not to date him if what she wanted was security. Dating him was a risk. Suppose that explained why she was here now, at this time. “Pass on the Vodka, but thank you, really. I’m not such a fan of Vodka straight. I actually like it infused with fruit.” Childish tastes? Perhaps so. Did she mind? Not quite. “I’m glad to see you’ve been enhancing your already-amazing recipes. …I feel rather silly, because while you’ve been doing that, I’ve been doing this. I’d started for a few months now. I only save it for celebrations or for moments of stress, as most do. Have you heard of this whole Superbowl ordeal?”
[ϟ] "Don’t be, you goofball. It’s been more like I haven’t found anything else to do so I’ve been doing the same as I always have. Celebrations and moments of stress is understandable of course." A small sip from his sprite as he set his shot glass down for another. "Yes, I have. It’s over now the game was a bit sad for the other team. I haven’t found much interest in this game though since none of the teams I like got in this year. Did you watch it too?" Steal a bite of more of her chicken. Ah! "The zombie show that we watched together will be coming back on next week, are you just as excited as I am? However I’m still a bit sad about what happened before however." Holding up a piece of chicken with some rice, he prodded it from afar to her cheek. "Eat before it’s all cold now, only a little bit left."
(( ☼ “No, I haven’t done anything at all.” Huffs. “I honestly am beginning to wonder why people choose to be in relationships despite clearly not having time for them.” Mildly angry at this, but this was not suggesting she hop between men. No. Not at all. “Perhaps I’m simply not cut out for them, don’t you think? And would you mind if I took a drink?” Not Sprite this time, nor juice, nor water. But that trusty bottle of rum he had always kept in stock in the back of his fridge. No bother to hide her shameful, new habit; took a hefty gulp straight from the rim and carried the whole thing back with two shot glasses in hand. “Would you like a drink or two?”
[ϟ] "Looks like we’ve been the same, hah. More so I’ve been a bit jumbled lately, not as organized as I’d like to be usually." Expression softened and his brows came together. A mere shrug of the shoulders and he shook his head. "Some people just want someone to love and like the security a relationship brings. You never know, those people most likely are trying to change their schedule and make time." An interesting new habit that is now. Nonetheless, Len had been doing some every now and then himself. He chuckled as he took the shot glass from her and held it up for a pour. "I’ve got a bottle of vodka in the fridge too if you want it. I tried making Penne alla vodka again and it was damn good." Shot taken, accompanied with an interesting face. "When did you start?"
[☆] While positive to some extent, not enough. Corrupted thoughts, that poison had been all so familiar. After all, the same dosage from another source was inhaled before. So in acting what he would’ve wanted then, mending today’s mistake be done. Shake your head in response, glancing back with no emotion of spite. “Don’t think that. I stood in those same shoes before you did, Len.” Lecture? None intention. But advice that how it be handle, rested solely with him. “You see, I had my own Rin before. But.. suppose obviously that didn’t quite work.” Weakened vision curling to memories, softly exhaling.
Maybe fall on deaf ears, but he would give benefit of the doubt. “My romance with her was innocent. Truly so. And when my heart was impale by lost to another, I too tried waiting for her. But it was in vain. She’d never come back.” Gruff, eyes reestablished themselves. Meaning. “It shouldn’t take me to realize how much you feel for her, those feelings should’ve felt as strong before I came along. Do realize you only know how much you’d miss something when you do, but a value so true.. not so. Listen to my advice, please. Don’t limit yourself to her alone. Go out there, and find real love. Because even with Rin, that wasn’t true. You appreciated company, but that’s not love. Got the experience to back it up. Go ahead and be sad, just realize eventually you need to move on. And don’t hesitate then. I didn’t.”
[ϟ] "Whether it be in vain or not, I just want her to know that through everything, at the end of the day I’ll still be here waiting patiently for her. As a friend to help comfort or just someone to speak to about the daily news, either is fine with me. I’ve stated so before, I want to be in her life still and I’ll do anything to do so, but it does depend whether or not she wants me to or not. It’s seeming lately that she doesn’t anymore, but I’m not going to go back on my word. She’s still my best friend whom I care for a lot."
[ϟ] "I don’t intend to find love for a while. If it finds me, so be it. But I can’t move on so quick and so easily like that, it’ll take time for sure. But at the moment my heart lies with her. I used to do something like go out and seek immediately company from someone else when I was alone, but I’m not gonna do that anymore. I’m learning to deal with it myself and without the help of anyone else. It’s the only way one will learn, yes? Rest assured, I’ve been trying to stop myself from being stuck on her but things don’t always end well or exactly as I planned it to." Enough rambling now, no? He tilted his head side to side, cracking it a bit and sighed. "It’s the first in a while that I’ve been on my own like this, before I always had someone there, hah. But that’s what being stupid your entire time in life gets you, being surrounded by majority of the wrong people and only one right. I appreciate the point you’re making, but it’s not easy to agree in an instant."
(( ☼ “It’s always a good thing. Large boost that you’re busy often, so you aren’t isolated the entire time. Even recall messaging you a few times to receive dead response.” So long his mind wasn’t constantly brewing murky thoughts, it was fine. If it aided him any, happiness wasn’t always on her side, either. Such was the nature of a struggle, but. Maa, ii. “Oh. Yes! Drizzle lots of the sauce over the chicken and the rice. It is a bit sticky, and sweet and tart.” As she’d reach for a mini-spatula of her own to scoop some of the gluey mass of food from his plate. “Monja is rather sticky, isn’t it? Very wet. How confident are you that this is fully cooked?” it was supposed to be eaten as so, though. Charred bottom made it somewhat more appealing, but bottoms up. Hm. Hm! “Tastes much better than it looks! Aha.”
[ϟ] "I guess so, but that’s only thanks to work. When I’m alone I do a lot of thinking, probably too much hah. My mind wanders to a lot of things, sometimes it’s a good thing sometimes it’s not. Would you believe me if I said I didn’t respond just to see if you’d message me again?" A tiny smile lined his lips before it fell again. Munch. Another bite of chicken and some rice to go with it. And he did just as she said to, a half a spoonful of sauce was poured onto his rice and chicken before taking another bite. Cheeks moved about as the food was chewed and a brow was raised. “I’m not, heh. It’s the first I made monja. If it’s not fully cooked then I’ll know to adjust the cooking time if I ever plan to make it again.” Being it not fully cooked, she didn’t have to eat it. Simple enough. Now, a forkful of monja for himself. Chew chew. Still, a wave of relief washed over him when he realized that he did it right. Playing things off in a cool way only lasted so long. The corners of his lips pulled into a smile at what he took as a praise. “I’m glad. So. Have you done anything new lately?”
[☆] Long pause. Nothing rude intended, just the way his mind worked. Favorable lines weren’t always the first thought, impulse usually listened to but when it came to discussions like these, speaking the wrong words usually were spit out first than preferred. In the end, yes, they were the honest truth. But that truth couldn’t always be handled. Soften reality?.. No, no. Needed to be said. Damn, if only that smile could keep shinning. But, glancing back at it became clear. In his vision at the very least.
”..We’re happy. Forgive me, that’s not a line I can genuinely say very often.” Hand retracted, a nod given. “Wouldn’t say those last things factored in the decision. You simply.. didn’t fix your flaws. Or least, put forth the effort. Yes, intruding now but feel that’s where we separated. That veil, immaturity, wrongfulness; it changed. Not to say I have no faults but, made an attempt to change them. You continue the path, though.” And that was their choice. “Wish I console you, because despite denying earlier we shared qualities at a period of time. But I moved past. Time wasn’t the thing, it was will.” That’s that. “Funny, looking back a year ago wouldn’t had seen this coming. But that’s life, eh. Live and learn. Learn a bit, will you?”
[ϟ] "I’m well aware already. And I have been." No intention to snap back at him as he did, but that was how it came out. Len already knew that people who said that only meant to help but it didn’t stop his temper. A heavy sigh. Both arms remained crossed over his chest as he stepped back against the wall again. "You were spot on. I don’t like you because you get to love her, but that’s not the only reason. You took away my best friend. Someone that I didn’t know I loved as much as I do now. Someone that I needed most in the world. Even the conversations, hell. I know I shouldn’t expect anything but I’d be lucky to get a little chat in before she disappears to who knows where." That was most likely the exact same situation she was in. A mental slap for himself. "A lot may say this, but I don’t intend to go after anyone. I don’t. Rather there’s no one else that could make me forget and I won’t feel towards anyone else."
[ϟ] Hm. “Again, I understand what you’re trying to say and why you said it. But it’s almost impossible to expect any other response when somebody says that to another. They’d just snap back.” Arms fell from his chest and a hand extended out to him. “Know this. I’ll be on your ass in seconds if I hear anything. Give her everything. She deserves the world.”
[☆] Not at all. Never would that be an obtainable goal, regardless of interests. Pride sunk too deep between both, and it couldn’t ever be mended by the simple working. Forever enemies, least by one looking in. However, “—Sorry. Feel I’ve owed you that for the longest time.” Vision focused in, no retreat on his behalf. Stance was firm, reinforced. “I took away what was your lover, your light, and pretty much everything at this point. Can’t say I agree with how you treated her and how your relation twirled but.. that’s another issue. As a whole, I’ve caused you a lot of pain. And I’m sorry for that.” Honest, truly so. Wait a sec, not done. “You were her everything too, Len. She’s always loved you. Even when you didn’t. But I won’t comment further on that. How you both felt is only known by two people— neither me.” Pursed lips showed difficultly, pride bending it’s arm. “I want you to stay in her life. Because regardless, you’ll always mean a lot to her. And her to you. But please respect that she’s my lover now. I’ll treat her good— promise that. Be everything I can to her, and then some. Not the greatest but.. for her I’ll do plenty. So please,” Hand offered out, vulnerability. “Know it means nothing, since I’ve taken her away from you already, but an ok would be appreciated. Or least a promise that if I fuck up entirely, you’ll clean it up. And get her back.” Heh.. where that come from. Along with that subtle smile.
[ϟ] Quite the surprise there. However he was spot on with everything he’d said. “I know how I treated her and I regret it more than anything. Hah. She was the only one that stood by through everything, though there were times when I forced her just for my own needs.” Pathetic. “I took her for granted too many times. I thought that no matter what she’d still be there at the end of the day. But y’know, I pushed her too much. I can’t accept your apology. Not now, I guess. I’m trying to be okay with it, but this stupid head of mine won’t let me, hah.” All the negative thoughts were the only ones that came to him in the end. The back of his head met with the wall and he took a breath, then sighed. “You’re probably more fit for her than me. The more knowledgeable the better after all.” Older too. “Whether or not I am still included in her life isn’t just my choice, it’s hers. I’ve been trying to be in her life but there are times she ends up ignoring me. Sometimes it’s better to leave past things in the past, right?” Hah. Pulling himself off the wall, he took a step towards him and locked eyes. “Trust me, I’d be more than happy to get her back. Don’t you dare go down without a fight. Rin deserves to be happy and I want her to have a big smile on her face everyday. It’s obvious that I can’t be the one to give it to her, hell. I couldn’t ever make her smile that way. I’ll put aside how I feel for her, and if that time ever comes the first thing I’ll do is go after you.” Half a smirk? Eh. Still didn’t feel right.